Daily Journal

 November 16, 2011 11:47pm

Went to church tonight. Help in the kitchen with making sandwiches and cleanup for children and parents and teachers to eat for the AWANA program. Absolutely love doing this. Wouldn't give up my Wednesdays for anything.. Let me say this tho.. We serve sandwiches and chips and cookies.. Easy. Not stressful at all. There is a group of us who set it up so no pressure. And wonderful people to socialize with while working.



Here's the deal 87 meal tickets tonight, and I can't even guess how many sandwiches were thrown away because all 'we wanted was chips.' So I ask my pastors wife (the Head of AWANA) to please speak with the children about throwing away all this food. Let them know if all they want is chips then just get chips. She says yes that is a wonderful idea and she would be glad to let me speak to the children. REALLY?? REALLY?? So not in my comfort zone.. REALLY?? Here comes the bus... vroom vroom run right over me..

Now let me say this. This Godly woman is wonderful! I wish to be able to be alot like her one day! She is caring, thoughtful, loving, accepting, a very beautiful woman inside and out. Proverbs  31s virtuous woman is HER! I love her. But REALLY??? me?? And guess what? My lovely virtuous woman whom I seek out for guidance, was serious. So serious she walked me up to the podium and introduced Mrs. Tanya as one of the women that helped prepare their food and needed to share something with them.

Now 20 years of management experience under my belt, I was MORE scared right that moment than I have ever been in my entire life. Why? Still working that part out.. maybe because not only were the children present but ALL the parents, ALL the church members, ALL the leaders and teachers, and The Pastor And Deacons.. What if I said something wrong? out of line? Me and my mouth.. the aggressiveness, the bluntness, the harshness, all these mountains God has taken me too. Mountains I am STILL circling. Some mountains God has graced me to overcome and obtain the promise land.

Needless to say I did it. And I survived.... I didn't say anything wrong, wasn't aggressive or mean. Got my point across and finalized my statement with asking the children to think about their friends at school and how many did they know didn't eat lunch because they had no money? And no one fainted, fell out, satan didn't appear, I didn't have a heart attack, it went well....  I was a mess inside tho..

Funny how we can get through something frightening and hard, even though inside we feel like we are about to lose it. Gods grace is good like that! He covers everything and anything. Making the choice to ask Him is our decision, and once we do this, then voila God happens.. Gotta love Him just for being Him!!

Goodnight all!
CHOOSE right now to receive God and LET Him work in you to renew your mind!